Yesterday would have been your 17th birthday. This is your 4th birthday over the bridge and I hope each year you get a bigger cake and more sparkles and more tiaras. I know you have made, unfortunately for the humans left behind, new friends. I hope you are still welcoming each and every one of them with your big smile and your cheery disposition.
We miss you down here on earth. The sidekick is good and she keeps me on my toes. Could you possibly send her a little message to stop destroying paper products? She seems to love to attack brand new rolls of toilet paper.
She doesn’t quite ‘trash dive’ as you used to. Perhaps she knows that is a firm no no. I can’t say I miss coming home to seeing coffee grinds all over the floor when I would forget to close the pantry door.
She barks – a lot. You were such a quiet girl. I think I only heard you bark once or twice in your sleep. I recall how when the doorbell would ring, you would look at me as if to say “you gonna get that”?
She has learned to snuggle and cuddle. Do you remember how we had snuggle and cuddle time? Even in the end … there was something special and heartwarming about being able to be close enough to feel your body next to mine. We were so in-sync. I always knew where you were. You always have to be close to me, on the couch, on the floor, in our bed. The sidekick puts herself to be so early it’s almost like I live alone most nights. I miss watching TV with you. I miss looking over and seeing you sleep next to me; peacefully.
I saw your doppelganger today when I went for a run. Remember sweet Milo? He’s still kicking. He must be close to 16 now. He was only a year or so younger than you. He moves slower but still seems happy. Whenever I see him, I feel like that is a sign from you.
I heard you last night. People might think I am crazy but the sidekick was no where to be found and I heard a sound like something dropped on the floor by my feet. Like a movement of some sort. Thank you for visiting! Of course I knew it was your birthday and we talked about you yesterday.
I miss you sweet Shelby Lynne … I really do. BUT I know we will be together again and I know you are forever in my heart and with me always.
So happy birthday my darling girl … I love you … to the moon and back and for all infinity!